So my monsters seem to come out to torture me when there’s no one to lend an ear. When there’s no one willing to wear my shoes. When they know that i am in a room without a door nor window to ease my mind into an escape. Mr. Understood, because these cards are not worth playing. I’ve lost too many battles to these monsters just to be told i am the reason that they come. Expectations never par. Hopefullness has only produced disappointments. How can I be nursed back to my feet and be a part of a healthy sunshine that gives me happiness and strength through this happiness that’s soul fulfilling? Because monsters don’t stand a chance against my ideal world.
You know back when we enjoyed life, before Reality showed up to the party. Now it’s fighting monsters and dragons with a toothpick. Now it’s being thrown in the middle of the ocean with only the cushion from your airplane seat to survive. Now when you wake up expecting the sun to shine, it’s hiding behind that one dark cloud that has no desire to leave your presents. Now it’s seeing the light at the end of the tunnel only to realize that it’s a fast train heading your way. Now it’s trying to get the people that believe in you and understand you to be by your side. Shake your head slow because it’s a dream.
As the truth begins to blossom. It’s the reality that hurts the most. Hanging your head low out of shame only illuminates the spotlight. Slowly that monster is born and begins to grow rapidly. Frankenstein only needed a spark.
What would you give to feel good forever? What would you give to be viewed in enjoyment forever?
Unfortunately this spaceship ride called life set on autopilot doesn’t slowdown. Only if we could take control and become the pilot ourselves!
When you’re absolutely ready to get the world off of your shoulders and motivated to face those demons head up. And you’ve come to the realization that you’re in this alone and you will not hesitate this time. You’ve fallen for their shit before but not this time around!
I’m like an addict coming at you for a little more. There so much at stake, I can’t afford to wait… I’ve never needed anyone like this before! – Shirley Manson (Garbage)